21 February 2014

Balancing stickiness

In October, 2013, I started a new full-time job. It was my decision to make a change, and I’m working in my chosen field though in a drastically different environment. This shift brought with it myriad unexpected changes. Because of scheduling, I relinquished teaching my regular Monday night yoga nidra class. This was a disappointment, but I planned to pick up another class once I got settled. 

Surprise! When that opportunity arose, I was excited and then crushed when I realized there was just not going to be enough of me to go around. Two nights each week I facilitate a 3-hour therapy group which has me out until after 9 p.m. One day a week, I’m in at 6 a.m. and am not sitting quietly drinking tea and writing; the early morning is busy and hectic and often entails drama. I work 12 hours on Mondays and 10 hours on Thursdays. My new position does not currently contain the space that I require to commit to a regular weekly teaching schedule - and I have been bummed about that. On top of it, I seem to have contracted what has only recently been diagnosed as “chronic sinusitis” - for the past 4 months, my ears have been ringing, I have monster post-nasal drip, my head feels heavy, my eyes stick together when I sleep, my sleep has been compromised, and it sucks. Fortunately, I believe I’m on the mend.

I’ve also had the privilege of taking my own advice (you know, the suggestions that wellness professionals give to clients but frequently have a difficult time applying to themselves). I’m resting more, bought a humidifier, changed some eating habits, instituted a new exercise program, gotten some much needed body work, take more steamy baths, ask for what I need, etc. It has been VERY DIFFICULT. And it’s also been a good lesson.

One of the things I learned is that the best way for me to teach at this time in my life is within the context of my daily work. I also had a wonderful opportunity to lead a workshop at Project Yoga Richmond as part of their “Learn More” series: Yoga for Recovery: A Toolbox for Self Care. We had a great showing and a mix of yoga teachers, newcomers, folks in recovery, therapists, and good friends.

Putting this workshop together was good for me in that I revisited some old reading in order to put together a resource list for the class. It reminded me that my practice, my teaching, and my life is always evolving. Things change every instant. The more I try to keep them the same, the more opportunities I might miss. Hanging on to the comfortable, pleasant past can be just as limiting as staying stuck in old negative behavior.

Life is good. Thanks for being in mine!

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